Thursday, December 27, 2007

Merry "late" Christmas

It has been a while..
I can't believe that the year of 2007 will end pretty soon. :( Following is the highlight of 2007:
* my graduation
* stressfull job hunting
* my sister..
* my parents...
* apartment searching
* transition from PRN to Youth Specialist
* my work partner left me 2 weeks after I worked as a specialist
* my stressful job, difficult time at shelter for 1 month
* Graduate school applications
* my annual staff party
* my last Christmas eve w/ my lovely friends.
* my last Christmas dinner w/ our host parents here in Ames
* my "blue" day- the day after X'mas-due to family problem and my roommate's departure
* I try to be a strong,tough person, but I find it is hard just to be a strong girl.

My wishes for the year of 2008:
I want to be a successfull graduate student,this time, I will graduate w/ honor, not with a distinction. **cross fingers**
I will keep working w/ youths and families
I will keep myself as busy as I can
I want to find a hole, where I can keep all my secrets. I am hoping that this hole can accommodate things that I can't share w/ anyone.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Hello AgaIn!

Hey!

Nothing new...
I still busy work w/ my kids and try to do my job as best as I can.
Thanksgiving is coming soon...and then December,,, Christmas,,,
Time goes so fast..
I can't believe...

Sunday, October 7, 2007

My 1st week as a specialist...

Congratulations!
I've just passed my first week, working as a youth specialist.
Just to let you know, this position is way difficult, not as easy as my previous positions (relief worker and temp. cook).

I am praying that I can survive w/ this type of working environment until May 08. **Sigh**
We had a horrible days at shelter that couldn't be described in words. Fortunately, I'll have a long "weekend" and will use this weekend to pamper myself..

Daag,,,

-M-

Sunday, September 30, 2007

**Ehhmm**

I find a person who wants to share an apartment with me. Unfortunately, my next housemate is a male, but I know him since we like to hang out together every weekend. He is doing co-op in Cedar Rapids right now, but he will back to school on January 2008 and need a living place.
I feel good because I can save at least $300 both for rent and utilities costs. I know it is a little bit weird, but my goal is to save money. Hehehe...

My current housemate will back to Ames next Tuesday. I know this weekend is a big day for her family, so I pray for her that everything goes well. I will miss her when she leaves for Jakarta at the end of this year. :(

OOh, I had a dinner with my ex college friend yesterday. We ate Italian food, and I loved it. Right before I left her car, she gave me a scarf from Bolivia as a birthday gift. :) I felt sad that I had to work last night, and it was a tough night for me at shelter. I couldn't sleep well after that because things didn't go right, and once again, I was failed. I accidentally opened my daily prayer book this morning, read one prayer, and the words on that particular prayer reminded me of why I chose to come to shelter. So, I said to myself that I would try once again. I don't want to be defeated. I want to show my best effort until at the end of my contract.

Friday, September 28, 2007

bla..bla..bla...

Hoh..

For some reason, I really want to attend my friend's wedding on November. However, I can't go home....
*sigh..
I don't have any specific topic to write on.. so, please excuse me, if you find today's blog is kind of unstructured.

I haven't found a person who wants to be my housemate. Therefore, I need to save a lot of money to cover the apartment fee. :(

Oh, I cut my hair two days ago. My hair is short now, and I like it!

How's my shelter?
One girl is leaving this morning,so I wish her luck w/ her new placement.
Last night we had one boy who made a lot of trouble. We couldn't control him, and as a result, we couldn't let him go to elevate meeting in YSS main office. He was upset and threw his tantrum to us. We led him alone, so he asked if he could sit in the office. We said yes to him. Surprisingly, he was able to calm himself by chatting with us. He liked Tokyo Drift movie, and I said that I liked that movie, too. He mentioned that he wished he could go to Tokyo. We chatted about places we would like to go when we have a lot of money. My partner said that she wanted to go to Bahama, or a place that allows her to do water sport (I can't remember the name..).
I then told them that I wanted to go to French, Europe, eat various dessert and drink coffee. hahahahaha...
I then shared my high school stories, told them the manner that I had to use when I talked or met older people. Now, my partner and I know how to handle this particular boy. We will just let him alone for a while, in hoping that he will let his anger down.

We also expect another boy to leave shelter soon. He teaches his peers to not comply w/ staff. He basically tries to get his peers in trouble. He will have last evaluation next monday and we hope that he would go to another placement soon.

I am still learning w/ the whole situation. I borrow several books from public library to help me handle moody-troubled-youths. I had read a book about the life story of four troubled youths who were sent to a therapeutic school in Massachusets. I learn how the counselors handle these youths and what situation they encountered throughout the program. I was able to relate the reading with my own workplace because we experienced the same issues, too.

Now, I have three books in my hand. One is about how to cope when you live in a dysfuntional family, and the next one is a book about how adolescents fall to drugs, and the last one is a book to prevent adolescents from committing suicide. I know that these three books equal to reading assignments back when I was in college. However, I need to learn as I will hold a new role. My role is not easy considering that I only have seven months experience in this field and language barrier. As I mentioned last time, youths that come to shelter are from various background. Each of them speaks in different accent, and I need to adjust myself w/ their language styles. They also have to familiarize themselves w/ my accent, so that takes time, too.

Okay, I better to get going..
I work today..
see ya..

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Trying to solve my problems..

I get one day off, so I use this time to take care of my apartment lease. As I mentioned long time ago, I was planned to leave US on December, but the plan was changed. I got a job offer last week from shelter where I work, which means I will have to stay up till May 2008.

The property sent us a renewal contract, and they offered 5 mths to 12 mths lease. I decide to take 5 mths lease ($600/mth) by myself because I don't want to move again, and the rent cost is roughly same. I'll just have to use my money wisely from Jan-May 08. *SIgh... At least, I solve half of my problem.

Anyway, yesterday was my last morning shift since my kitchen manager has come back already. My full-time position will start on next Wednesday, Oct 3, but this week I fill some of the hours (Thursday-3-7pm; Friday-1-6pm; Saturday-??)I am half excited, half nervous carry out a new role as a youth specialist. For sure, I don't want to dissapoint both my coordinator and director since they are so kind to me. I also don't want to distress my partner, and fortunately I have known her for a while..

I feel relieved after all. I don't need to do job hunting, or I should say job-hotel-hunting because I have one in my hand. The next plan is to work hard and continue finishing my grad essays. I have one essay done and still need to finish one more. I can't predict what will happen to my life after May 08, but I look forward to going home for break. I do need a break and want to meet my old high school friends. :)

I guess, I will do these things if I can go back to Indonesia next summer:
1. rearrange my new bedroom. (yes, I have my new bedroom, but my mom still use the old furniture.. that's fine with me)
2. see other parts of the house like kitchen, living room, my sister's room, and etc.
3. cut my hair
4. call my high school friends
5. go to my elementary school. This time I have to go there
6. go to my high school.
7. eat my yummy traditional food (I like to eat food that use glutinous rice)
8. visit my English teacher
9. ask my parents if they allow me to take a vacation

10. go to facial treatment

hahahaha... that's way too much...
Okay..
I have things to do..

See yaa..

Friday, September 21, 2007

Blessing-

I can't describe how I feel when they offer me a full-time position. I reassure myself that this is it. This is the field that God wants me to work on. There's nothing wrong, and I am doing good. I don't know how many times I try to convince myself that I am all right, that I get what I want at last. Still, I feel weird w/ the news they told me on Wed morning.

This is unbelievable. I tell them that I only can work until May 6, 2008, tell them that I rely on bus schedule, and tell them that I haven't taken my license test yet. They accept my condition without complaint. I don't know how I should thank them for all the opportunities they give to me. I won't forget this moment... I will show my best effort to them, dedicate myself to help youths and carry out shelter's missions.
I understand that I'll have to find a new living place beginning January 2008. I know that I won't be able to hang out w/ my friends on Friday and Saturday, not until midnight I guess.. Huh..
The good thing is I am off on Sunday-Mon-Tuesday. That means I still can go to church on SUnday. Yay! I love it.
I probably will spend my Thanksgiving dinner w/ my kids. I'll be fine. I'll make turkey, green bean casserole, mashed potatoes, and pumpkin pie for them. I'll celebrate my Thanksgiving dinner w/ them.

I'll need to learn all game boards since I will spend more times with them...

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Confused-Tired

Things didn't go well as I expected today. I felt that I made a lot of mistakes, got angry easily, and couldn't finish my works.

I planned to leave at 2:45 pm today so that I could go home and take a short nap before I went to church. Shelter needed me to stay until 4:30pm, and I knew that I had to stay because some staff were gone for training.

The maintenance fixed the racks so they removed the food items out from pantry. About 2:30pm, the maintenance came and said that they planned to put the rack back to the pantry, but they saw that we haven't cleaned the floor yet. I was in the middle of med counting and decided to stop because I would need to clean the floor soon. One intern came and helped me scrubbing the tough stain, but I was still angry. I felt that Z (another staff) didn't do much to help me, and I couldn't finish my med count. The intern and I finally finished cleaning the floor. The maintenance came and put the rack back to the pantry. Next, I asked two clients to help me reorganize the pantry. :( I was tired by that time.

One boy rushed me to call his JCO, while I forgot the additional code number to make a long distance call. I then ran asked Z, but he thought I postponed his phone time. I happened to yell at him, but I was able to manage myself. I raised my voice a little bit when I explained to him that I had to ask questions to Z. However, he didn't want to understand my situation.

The above situation described my day's activity. let's move to my evening time...
About 8 pm, my friend called me, and he made me mad. He told me that he couldn't guarantee that ____ officers would be able to come. I was mad because he couldn't make a decision, while I demanded his action. I told him that I would take my own action and thanked him for his good concern.

Now, I am half sleepy, but I cannot sleep. Many things need to be done, but my brain can't cooperate well. I need a vacation, but I can't leave my job. I force my brain to think, plan, analyze, multitask, and make a decision at the same time. :(

:( :( :(
I am expecting to go home, but it seems that I won't be able to go home until next year. Why? I will tell you when everything is confirmed..

Almost crazy...

@_@

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Thank You

I am thankful for:

* my life that God has been given to me up to this point
* my supportive parent and sister
* education that I have been received for nearly 16 years
* all opportunities while I was studying at Iowa State Univ
* my experience at Le Meridien Hotel-Singapore
* my high school friends and teachers
* my lovely friends in Ames
* my professors at Iowa State
* my mentor, Paula
* my English teacher in Semarang, Mr. Subur
* my Mandarin teacher in Semarang
* HD FS 102 class
* my major that helps me to be a semi-professional chef for my friends and kids at shelter
* a youth shelter where I work now
* my current young clients at shelter
* my prog coordinator, day manager, youth specialists, and director that trust me to handle all works at shelter
* my current church here in Ames that help me to keep my faith and control my problem.

Monday, September 10, 2007

SicK

OOhh...
I had a fever on Thursday night until Friday, then lost my voice over the weekend.
I still managed to come to work this morning because I thought my manager would freak out if I didn't come. It would be difficult to find someone who could work at 7 AM, so I decided to come.

My kids were surprised when they learned that I lost my voice, and one of them said that I should haven't come this morning. and could survive until 3 pm. One girl suggested me to drink a sprite or hot beverage like tea because it will cure the pain. **Sigh...**

Saturday, September 1, 2007

September..........

Hey!

Nothing special, nothing new other than I have to give my position back to the kitchen manager at the end of September..
:(

What else?
I made a chicken porridge this morning... so far so good
I plan to make a german chocolate cake for my friend tomorrow morning.
I have things that bother me so much, and I don't know how to solve it.

September reminds me of someone..
hahaha

HappY LabOr DaY!

-W-

Saturday, August 25, 2007

My stupidity

I thought I would cook an appetizer about two weeks ago, so I bought 2% milk carton(small size)because the recipe called for it. However, I cancelled my plan because we had lots of event during last two weeks, and this meant no one used or drank the milk. Therefore, the milk ended up in the garbage bin as I checked stuff in the fridge this morning. :(
I believe this is the second/third time I dump milk because I only use it for cooking/baking, and I am too lazy to drink the leftover. Hehehe...
I used to ask my friend to help me to drink the milk because she always drinks a glass of milk every morning and right before she goes to bed. Now, I don't stay in her apartment anymore, and my current house mate isn't a big fan of milk either. I know it such a waste to dump the whole milk carton, but the milk already expired and needed to be throwed away.

Let's move to my another stupid stuff...
I accidentally dropped one of my client's rash/itching pills when I poured the pills back to the bottle after med count. I couldn't find it, so I notified my specialist and wrote this incident both in the shift update and in the client's log ( the one who has that prescription). The total pills should be 58, and it has 57 pills now. :(
I felt really bad and mad due to my carelessness... Fortunately, I only missed one pill and it wasn't a psychotic drug, so I was 60% safe. This means, another client may not face a danger if, for some reason, they find it and take the pill. Yes, my clients (some of them) are very good in taking advantages of pills in order to get "high." They will use any pills, such as, pills for headache, flu, or stomachache, and drink those pills in huge amount until they get "high."

Last but not least, I removed the leftover food to container after we finished our lunch, and I didn't aware of what I did, but I heard one girl said, "Maria, just dump the pan, that was a disposable one.."
I then realized that I only dumped the food, but not the pan.. SHe laughed at me...

I do a lot of stupid things that I can't count anymore. Right before I took over a kitchen manager position, I prayed that my stupidity would not show up for at least 10 weeks (I still pray until now..). Otherwise, I would get in trouble as I did yesterday during the med count. My specialist convinced me that it would be fine because she also had same experience last time, but I guessed she tried to calm me a little bit.. Well, I will have to wait until Monday when my day manager reads the yesterday's shift update ** cross fingers**


Ok, that's all I have for now..

Have a fantastic weekend!

_m_

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

To Cook Means To Entertain

I stayed in shelter until 3:45 PM today due to meal preparation. FYI, I am supposed to leave at 3 pm.

One of my co-worker will lead a Mexican Culture group tonight, and she ask if I can serve Mexican food. I then decided to make Enchilada and Southwestern Pasta Salad for them. It took about 1.5 hours to finish two meals plus one additional menu. :)
My co-workers asked how I got cooking skills, so I told them that I studied Hotel and Restaurant w/ a minor in CHild Family Services. I always emphasize my minor because they will wonder why I end up in this field instead of hotel/restaurant field.

As I said on the previous blog, I like my current position because I can cook and interact w/ my clients (adolescence). I also find a pleasure when I cook or bake. :) It helps me to forget my problem, and it is important for me to know whether they like the food or not. Overall, my friends are the best customers I ever had. They will eat any meals that I cook for them, even though the presentation sometimes is not good, they still love it. :)
Thus, I guess I cook to entertain someone else. Hihihihihi....

Some kids and my co-workers passed the kitchen several times to see what I was doing. I found a little bit uncomfortable when they watched me, and I would get distracted if kids walked between kitchen and bathroom because I would automatically check on them. One boy actually banged either his door or window so loud until it rang the central alarm. His room was on the back hallway, close to the kitchen, and I was wondering who did that, but I thought it was another kid who played games in the dining room. I then learned from my co-worker that it was him, and my co-worker said that I should have approached his room. Well, I was careless and felt sorry about that incident.

@@@@@

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Mmm...

I think aluminium foil hates me because my hands lately get a lot of scratches from foil. It hurts, and my hands look ugly...
Two weeks have been passed since the day I filled a kitchen manager position at shelter. The kids though liked my food, and they would pass me on the kitchen to check what food I cook for them. :)
They always pass on kitchen every time they go to the restroom, so they will stop by and see what I am doing.
One day my coordinator mentioned that they got a "bonus" from me because I got some quite-good cooking skills. She also offered me to lead a group about Indonesian culture in order to emphasize cultural diversity in shelter. I am honestly not sure w/ her idea, but she is excited and there's no way I can say no to her.

FYI, following is the hierarchy in my workplace (shelter):
1. Service DIrector --> she leads three facilities (shelter, male and female recovery houses). She visited our shelter almost every day last week. She is a fashionable lady (green shirt, green handbag,and peridot (bright green gemstone)jewelry). Last but not least, I like her perfume's fragrance for some reason. :)

2. Program COordinator --> she is the lady that I mentioned frequently in my previous blog. She is responsible for hiring full-time and part-time staff, signing any types of forms, and preparing legal paperwork. She seldom answers the incoming calls because staff must answer the phone, not her. I thought she only cared about paperwork, but she apparently played bingo w/ clients (kids) almost the entire day yesterday. It surprised me, but I liked it. :)

3. Day Manager--> he works 7-3 pm, but he works 6-2pm temporarily due to I cannot come at 6 am. He is responsible for day activities at shelter. He will move to the intake office (upstairs) every morning at 7 am to supervise clients' morning shower. He also gets in touch w/ social workers, attorneys, and medical appointment. He'll give updates to workers regarding their clients' behavior. That's the reason, we do log a lot because we'll summarize clients' progress based on the information showed on the log.

4. Kitchen Manager--> she works 6-2pm and prepares 3 meals (M-F), orders food and household items, keeps track on the nutrition guidelines. This is actually the position I am filling in. I will get a headache when the items from food bank and Sysco come because I have to fit all items in two freezers and cabinets. SHe also gets in touch w/ workers, but I am not doing this part because I don't really like it... I mean I have limited information about workers and their clients, so it'll take another hour to understand the situation.

5. YOuth Specialist Regular. RIght now, we have about 5 regular youth specialists. They are responsible for supervising clients, leading life skills group, counseling w/ clients (if needed), updating some news to workers/doctors, completing clients' file. The work hours (1pm-11pm and 3-11pm)

6. Night Hours Manager--> We have two night hours managers. This position is not hard (from my perception) because you only need to stay in the shelter the entire night, do bed check, prepare dishes for breakfast, complete shift updates, prepare new point sheets, and finish laundry. The bad thing is that you have to work from 11:30pm-9AM and 11:30pm-11:30am in between Friday and Saturday.

7.Youth Specialist Flexible. We have 3 youth flexi, and their duties are similar to what youth specialist regular does. The difference is that their work hours are more flexible than the regular staff, means they must be available when shelter needs extra full time staff. The work hours (10am-10pm; 11am-11pm; *12 hours shift...)

8. PRN Relief WORker. This is a part-time position, my original position. I believed I had explained what the relief worker meant in the previous blog. We work on the weekend Sat and Sun (8-1pm) for sure. However, we may work in other times if full-time staff can't make their shifts because of vacation, medical leave, and other issues.

9. Intern/volunteer. Normally ISU students.

Wohoo...I hope the explanation is clear enough... :)

My grad school essays are not yet finished, and I need to submit the application soon. Well, the dateline is Oct 15, but I want to submit the entire application in September. One of my friends asked me if I would like to apply for culinary schools in New York. I happened to think to apply for culinary school since I like to cook. To be honest, my position now is quite satisfying because I can cook, interact w/ kids, so I get all at the same time. However, I know that I can't hold this position because the real kitchen manager will come back at the end of September. I, indeed, expect that my coordinator will extend my position up until October, but it is likely not going to happen, right??

All right, that's all for today...

Thanks...

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Ethic, Philosophy, and Faith

I'm not sure how I will describe my feeling, but I feel not right, guilty, shame, and sad at the same time when I see my friends drink alcoholic beverages in events like a house party or even during weekdays.

Why?
Their drinking habit is not acceptable and probably abusive. It is okay to drink beers or liquors occasionally, but I don't think it is all right to drink alcoholic beverages in "huge" amount almost every night.

I've just come back from a house party that one of my best friends hosted it. I decided to leave early, and I told them that I felt not safe. Some of them understood my decision while some were not. There was a music in addition to beverages, and I worried that polices would search the apartment due to music volume. I am also afraid that every one in that place will get a trouble, and I'll feel guilty if my coordinator knows I have a criminal record due to this event. As you know, I work in shelter, and my major duty is to educate trouble youths of how to make a good choice, control our emotion, and to live in a better life.
Therefore, I have to hold those lessons into my everyday lives. I can't just tell them, but I don't practice those life values in my own life.

I, then, have another dillema. I want to stay w/ my best friends because that's the time I can hang out w/ them and also to avoid a "nerd" image that probably attach to me. However, I feel not right and guilty when I stay there. I fight so hard to stay longer in that place, but I don't think I can do it. I understand if they call me a lame girl because I don't either dance or drink, but I won't feel guilty at least.
I feel sad because I can't tell them that they shouldn't drink such like that. I had tried to tell them to reduce their drinking habit several times, but it didn't work.

I also observed people characteristics while I was there. It was interesting to watch their characteristics. Sometimes I think my friend drinks alcohols a lot because he/she can't handle his/her life stress such as, job hunting, work issues, family matter, and loneliness. Others drink alcohols and liquors because they want to taste and leave a "cool" impression. Some of them drink because they want to expand their knowledge in beverages.

In addition to that, I observed several guys at that place and made a case based on my observation. How if one day I have a boyfriend who has binge drinking? How should I tell him to stop? I also searched for acceptable/ reasonable characteristics from all guys who drank and dance in that place because I can't expect to have a boyfriend or future husband that doesn't drink at all or hasn't been to the pub before.
I know it's funny, but I find one characteristic that I believe each person should have, and it is an ability to control yourself (knowing your limit). You can drink and go to the bar/pub, but you must know when you must stop to drink and how you should act in that kinds of places.

I really wish my friends read this particular blog especially for those who drink alcoholic beverages frequently. I am hoping that they will understand and inspect their attitude once they read this blog.

Last but not least, it is okay if you disagree w/ what I write here because every one has different perception. What I am trying to say in this blog is that we need to be able to say "no" to our friends, even to our best friends if we truly know that we are right. DOn't drink, if you know that you don't like beers/ hard liquors or you think that those particular beverages are too strong for you. As my friend said, "You are responsible for your own life."

Saturday, August 11, 2007

What a lovely day..

Woohoo...
I found another PRN who wanted to cover my shift on Saturday. Thus, I woke up at 7 AM this morning, talked on the phone w/ my sister, and slept again until 10:45 AM. Hahahaha....I know that it isn't right to wake at 10:45 AM, and I will try to not do it again in the future..

My birthday is coming soon. Yup, this upcoming Monday. I'll be 22 years old, and I'll celebrate my birthday w/o my family. Last year, I insisted that I wanted to go back to the States on Aug 13, even though I knew that I could postpone my departure. I still remember how my Dad wished that I could celebrate my birthday at home, but I said that I needed to go back soon because I had a mentor training. My friends who picked up me at airport brought me to a restaurant and just before we finished our meals, the servers brought a strawberry cheesecake for me. I was surprised at that time because I thought it was just normal dinner, but they actually planned it for me. Special thanks to E, S, R, and L! :)

This year, I'll have a b'day dinner w/ my friends who always make me laugh. :)
I'm thankful for their presence and support.

I guess, that's all for today.

Thanks for stopping by, and I wish you have a pleasant day!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Ggrr...

My clients who are about 10-12 yrs younger than me really drive me crazy!
None of them followed my direction,and some of them gave me disgruntled face.

Then,
I went home, planned to have a delicious meal. However, I ended up w/ half-burned vegetables and a medium rare chicken. I normally a good cook, but tonight I am the worst cook ever...

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

New Apartment-New Role and Responsibilities

Hey!

I'd already moved to a new apartment yesterday. My friends moved 3/4 of my stuff first because I was at work when my house mate picked up the keys. Special thanks to Y, E, and my house mate who helped me during the moving process.

I was exhausted and had to wake up at 5:30 AM this morning. FYI, I had two days training with the kitchen manager, and it started at 7 AM. She will be on medical leave starting this Friday, and I'll fill her position until she comes back to shelter. Most of my "new" duties will be preparing 3 meals, taking care of schools, ordering food items, and supervising clients. I will work 7-3 pm (M-F) till the end of September. I am praying that my stubborness won't show up for the next 10 weeks.... We will see how it goes...

The good thing from this new role is that I can interact w/ all clients consistently since I meet them every day. I haven't told them yet about this news, but they will know soon or later..

What else??
*** I haven't yet found another person to cover my Saturday's morning shift... I don't mind to work, but I hope that I can wake up a little bit late this Saturday.. One day please...

**I am craving for mooncakes.. Hik..

Hmmph, that's all I have for today..

Thanks for reading my blog...

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

It has been a while...

I am sick, but I think my illness will benefit me because I can get rid from .... temporarily.
I am still staying in my friend's apartment, and I am hoping to move to a new apartment soon..

Kids at my workplace drove me crazy today. One of them argued w/ me just because I didn't allow her to sit next to boys in the living room. Another one was acting out, he demanded a lot of things. Hey, I am not your nanny!!!!
One girl also came and told me all the dramas that have been going on in shelter during past three days. * Sigh....

I am glad that I am off tomorrow so I'll take advantages my free time to refresh my mind. They really drive me nut!!!

Despite all the troubles they created, I got new experience from them. For instance, I personally don't like to hike or walk in the middle of bushes and trees. Today, I have to do that thing because I can't let my clients walk by themselves. I thanked them for their patience. I told them honestly that I didn't use to do this activity.
Moreover, another girl taught me how to play a card game called "speed." (I believe this is the exact name they refer to.. I'll double check..)

I know that these kids won't put my name as one of their favorite staff, and I don't expect it either. However, I learn and try to be the best relief worker they ever met. I am hoping that one day shelter will always remember my contribution to shelter and YSS. :)

Well..
I am better off now..
Thanks for reading it!

Friday, July 20, 2007

Hate....Hate Moving... Hate...Hate....

I had moved all my stuff to my friend's apartment and had a carpet cleaning this morning. I was surprised that the carpet in the bedroom area was still wet, even though the AC has been turned on for five and half hours. As I said on my previous blog, my apartment is quite old, so each apartment only has one AC which located on the living room. I guess this is the reason some areas are still wet..

I finally left the window slightly open to help the dry process. I'll come back tomorrow after I get off from work. *Sigh...

@_@

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

89 F

Ooh...
I try to not use AC frequently as a way to cut my electricity cost, but it doesn't work. Today's weather is so hot and dry. I had opened my two huge windows, but I still sweated..

I almost finish cleaning my apartment and ready to move. It took a while to clean the kitchen appliance because the previous resident didn't clean it for me. FYI, I subleased this apartment from someone else, and the only thing that he took care before he left was the refrigerator. I had to take out nails from the wall, clean the stained area above the stove... (I don't know the exact name of this one...), and etc.

What else??
I threw another pile of paper from my previous HRI classes since I wouldn't go back to hotel school anymore. :P

I did my laundry this morning because I probably won't be able to do it in my friend's apartment.. She indeed has a washer/dryer in her apartment, but I am afraid that it will add her utility cost..

Hmmph...
that's for today!

p.s. I bet you have been listened to Fergie's new song, "Big Girls don't Cry." I like this song... I want to play a swing every time I listen to this song..

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Turtles...

My friend told me that her baby turtles had been delivered to her apartment this morning. She bought termometer to ensure that the water is on the right temperature and a halogen lamp to create a "sunlight" for turtles. She even collected rocks from outside to make a small island..hehehe...

Anyway, she is happy, and she is currently staring at her baby turtles..

Friday, July 13, 2007

Stay late at shelter..

Again, I was informed that shelter needed a PRN to cover someone else's shift. I asked my prog coordinator if I could leave at 9 PM instead of 11 PM so that I could catch the bus. She agreed with me, but she asked my day manager to check if I could stay late until 11 PM which was the normal schedule. She also said that other full-times probably could give me ride to home. We had one regular youth specialist and one youth flex in addition to myself. I knew at that time that they would need me to stay until 11 PM, so I told them that I would ask my friend if she could pick up me at shelter.

Thanks to my friend who wanted to pick up me at 11 PM last night.
However, I felt bad when I knew that my friend had been waiting for me for half hours at parking ramp by herself. She apparently went to WalMart to buy some stuff, and instead of going back to her apartment, she decided to go directly to shelter. Her boyfriend wasn't in Ames and the girl that normally hanged out w/ her didn't show up last night, while another boy who went to WalMart w/ her decided to go home early. :(

I promise that I won't let this thing happens again...

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Black Forest Cake....

I made a black forest cake yesterday morning. The cake tasted a little bit bitter due to I read the recipe incorrectly. :P Fortunately, it tastes better when I put cherry filling between the layers and on the top of the cake. I recommended my friends to eat it with vanilla ice cream.

I also noticed that the cake was not moist,but this one was not my fault. I will try another recipe to check if I can get a better one. :)

So, that was my morning activity, then I went to change my address at post office and banks. I don't mind to move from one place to another, but I don't like to change my address frequently. I am afraid that I will lose my important mails such as, bank statements, letters from my workplace, and etc when I change my mailing address. Since I'll not stay in my new apartment until Aug 6, I worry if the current resident who still stay in that new apartment will return the mails to post office or throw my mail or open my mails.

The bottomline is that I worry almost about everything, and I will keep thinking about it until I am convinced that everything goes smooth.. sigh... I wish I could get rid of this particular habit.

Next....
I hanged out at my friend's apartment, and we browsed some websites to look for puppies. I also accidentally met my college friend who used to live accross my dorm's room back in my freshman years. She was in the middle of conversation w/ her friend, while I was studying her back posture from the window. I wasn't sure if it was her, so I called her name, and yay! I was right!
We chatted for about 5 mins because her fiance waited for her in his truck. I was excited when she told me that she would get married on July 28, 2008. :) Right now, she is living in Madrid, IA, but she is working in Ankeny. I believe she is an editor.. (FYI, she used to work in ISU writing center.. hehehe...)

Last but not least,
We had a dinner at local chinese restaurant and visited my friend's place after that. The boy was still hungry, even though he'd already eaten a full plate of ginger chicken. Luckily, the owner of this apartment recently cooked meatballs soup, so he asked if he could have some... hohohohoho.... I think he is in the growing process.. hehehe...

We then headed home...
:)

Monday, July 9, 2007

My First Visit at Univ Child Care Vet Med.

I had an interview at Univ Child Care Vet Med this morning, and that was the first time I went to this facility.

I was greeted by Amy (one of the interviewers), while Molly was busy looking for forms that I would need to fill out. She passed three forms and asked me to complete all of them before she and Amy conducted the interview. I assumed both of them were either a supervisor or program coordinator in this child care.

I applied for a teacher position at Univ Child Care Vet Med, and I actually was a little bit surprised when Molly said that I would work with toddlers. She said that there would be 4 teachers (3 full-time and 1 part-time) for toddler class. I forgot the number of students in each class, but it would be around 15-20 toddlers.

Some of the questions were tricky, and I did my best to answer those questions. I understand that I have limited experience in teaching toddlers because most of my experience is dealing with adolescents and high school students. However, I stated to them the reasons I applied for this position so that they wouldn't get confused with my previous background.

Switching career field from Hotel Restaurant Management to Child Family Services was challenging and somehow difficult to explain. I asked her if she had any concerns regarding my qualifications, but she said nothing. Indeed,I found out that I was the first applicant that went to the interview. She said that she would interview more applicants during this week, so I could expect the result by next week.
I went to short interview with the Bright Horizon's recruitment coordinator on Friday, before I met Molly and Amy this morning.

I asked Molly if I could take a look the classrooms, and she gave me a short tour before I left the facility. I guess I fall in love with this place, and at the same time, I am afraid that I'll be upset if they don't select me for the teacher position. I wonder what Molly and AMy think about me, but I cannot get the answers from them. I guess I'll have to wait until next week to find out the result.

I'll have one more interview at another child care facility tomorrow afternoon. This child care is located on Univ. Village. I have been there once, and it won't be difficult to find the place. I hope that I'll have a fabulous time at Univ Village's child care tomorrow afternoon.

thanks.

-W-

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

I *************

Have I told you what PRN means? I believe it is a Latin word, but "PRN" means "as needed." Thus, I am obliged to work when:
1. the shelter needs additional staff
2. Full-time staff cannot make their shifts due to illness, vacation, and etc.

Saturday and Sunday (8-1pm) are the days when I have to work (for sure), but I normally work in the afternoon on Sunday around 1 pm.

My night manager called me this morning to ask if I could work from 1-6 PM for her.
She was supposed to cover someone else's shift, but she decided that she didn't want to do it because she had to work again tonight. Sometimes,I don't understand with them, but it happens at shelter.

4th of July
I wish I could watch the parade this morning, but I ended up staying with my kids at shelter. Some of them either did not want or were not allowed to participate in the parade. Thus, these kids were sent back to shelter after had a pancake breakfast. One intern came VERY early because he didn't have anything to do at home, so he decided to come 5 hrs early from his regular schedule. Isn't he amazing?

Three older boys chatted with the intern, while I made an ornament with two younger boys. (I don't know what the name of this ornament.. I'll check it on Saturday and let you know the exact name of this thing..)The older boys talked about movies such as, Saw 3, Hostel 2, Transformer, and Spiderman 3, and other funny stuff.

Lunch time+ free time
Girls had pizzas for their lunch, while boys did bbq with staff at porch. I was glad that they did not make any trouble during this period of time. Some kids showed their talents (dancing, singing, and acting) to us, and I was hoping that I could take their pictures. I suddenly forgot all the bad things they did when I was watching their short performance. I believe that these kids and youths are not that bad. It is the environment that makes them break the rules, and I am sure some staff agree with me. :)

Anyway, I made my day at shelter. Thanks God!

Happy 4th of July!

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Pineapple Bread Pudding+ Green Mung Bean Soup

My weekend went pretty well. I made two desserts, finally found an apartment, and watched Ghost Rider. Still, I feel something is missing or not right, but I don't know which parts that need to be fixed or reevaluated.

I feel hopeless and hate myself...really.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Blue

What did I do on Friday?

I had my haircut, but my friends claimed that my hair looked same..One of them even said that I only wasted my money.
I went to shelter after that because one staff was sick, and I came to cover her shift.
As usual, some of them made me upset, but it was fine after all. I wondered if they noticed that I almost cried when I talked to them while we watched a movie in the rec room. I addressed one issue and wanted them to understand my position or at least appreciate my presence.

My friends then picked up me at shelter, and we headed home to watch a movie. I looked forward to watching this movie, and I would like to thank to S who brought the movie for us. I love this movie! It is a cartoon/animated movie..

Next, I went home, took a shower, and tried to sleep. I have a sleeping issue lately. The worst thing is that I keep blaming myself for things that happen to me. It is funny when I can motivate my friends and tell them how special they are, but I can't apply those things to myself. For instance, I met my friend accidentally at school about two days ago, and he said that some of his friends might not like him because they thought that he was over confident in expressing his ideas. I convinced him that he should proud of this particular characteristic because his confidence makes him special.
He was surprised when I said that, and he said this was the first time he heard someone praised his personality.

I wish I could motivate myself as I motivate someone else. All I see from myself is that I am the worst person with worst attitudes in the world.

I am emotionally exhausted with all the things that happen to me this year. I hope that I can survive and maintain my positive mind.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

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This week I feel:

Hopeless
Clueless
Tired
Sad
Confused
Angry
Lonely
Dissapointed
Lost
humiliated
Jealous

Monday, June 25, 2007

Apartment Hunting..

It's almost July, and I haven't found an apartment yet. It will be easy for me if I want to stay in Ames until July 2008, but I plan to leave Ames on January 2008. About three months ago, I thought I would move from Ames by the end of July, so I only looked for a summer sublease which run from May to July.

However, my plan changed as I got a part-time job at shelter last month. I thank for their kindness to me because they still want to hire me even though I don't have a car and haven't taken my driver license yet. FYI, most of the human services agencies require its staff to have at least a valid driver license, and some of them demand a personal car from its staff.
The reason is because staff will take kids to park, pool, and community center for activities. Sometimes, staff also take kids to hospital in case of emergency. For case worker or social worker position, you will drive from one place to another to visit your clients.

I told my program coordinator about my situation, and I was surprised that she only said, "That's fine. You just can't drive our van." I actually expected her to withdraw my job offer at that time, so I could leave Ames by the end of July.

Now, I am planning to leave the United States by the end of Dec or the latest will be on Jan 2008. I don't know if things come up, and I have to change my plan again. We'll see how this plan goes..

Anyway, I'll visit two apartments tomorrow, and one on Wednesday...

Sunday, June 24, 2007

"The Book of Useless Information"-part II

Section "Literary World"
-In the beginning-

People didn't always say "hello" when they answered phone. When the first regular phone service was established in 1878, people said "ahoy."

The phrase "the boogeyman will get you" refers to the Boogey people who still inhabit an area of Indonesia. These people still act as pirates and attack passing ships.

The magic word abracadabra was originally intended for the specific purpose of curing hay fever.

"Happy as a clam" is from the expression "happy as a clam at high tide." Clams are only harvested when the tide is out.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Stupid Friday Morning

I used to live in the dormitory where I could do my laundry without having to keep coins ($.25) to operate the machine. My dorm has total 12 washers/dryers for both Oak and Elm buildings. Each building has 6 washers and 6 dryers. I only need my ISU card and plenty amount of money on my CyCash account to run the machines.

Now, I live temporarily in small old apartment that only has two washers and two dryers for the entire building. I have to insert coins to operate them, but that's fine with me. The problem comes when I really want to wash my clothes, but I don't have enough coins.

My morning hassle began when I saw small piles of dirty clothes that annoyed me last night, but I had to wait until morning to change my paper moneys with coins.
Thus, I woke up around 7 AM, and the closest store I could go this morning was the store next to CHC. The cashier only had 4 quarters, so I decided to take them. I then walked to the C-store at UDCC, and the cashier luckily had plenty of quarters.. I was happy and excited to wash my clothes.

I thought that my problem has been solved before I learned that the dryer I used didn't work. My clothes were still half wet, and I didn't have enough coins again. I only had 75 cents at that time. Thus, I walked outside to change money and run the dryer again.
About an hour from that, I went downstairs to pick up my laundry. Guess? My clothes are still half wet. I guess the dryer hates me as I hate this machine,too.

Now, I hang all my clothes in my apartment and turn on fan to speed the dry process.
I am happy that I don't have to live in this old building again, even though I haven't found an apartment yet..
Sigh..

Anyway, HappY Friday!

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

"The Book of Useless Information"- Part I

Hey!

I got this book as part of the Borders' special offers (3 for 2), and I thought this book would entertain me considering its title "...useless information."

The mascot of this book is a squirrel, and following is some useless facts about this particular animal.
"It is estimated that millions of trees are planted by forgetful squirrels."
"Squirrels can climb trees faster than they can run on the ground."
"Squirrels may live fifteen or twenty years in captivity, but their life span in the wild is only about one year. They fall prey to disease, malnutrition, predators, cars, and humans."
"A squirrel cannot contract or carry the rabies virus."

Chapter 4 "On the menu"
"Tutti Fruity" section
--> Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient for waking you up in the morning
--> Approx. 17 thousand bananas are eaten each week in the Boston Univ.dining room.
--> In Ivrea, Italy, thousands of citizens celebrate the beginning of Lent by throwing oranges at one another.

"Java Time" section
--> A Saudi Arabian woman can get a divorce if her husband doesn't give her coffee.

"The Sweet Spot" section
--> M&Ms stand for the last names of Forest Mars Sr., the sweet maker, and his associate, Bruce Murrie. The candy was developed so soldiers could eat sweets w/o getting their fingers sticky.
--> Pound cake is so called because the original recipe required one pound of butter
--> Ice cream was originally made w/o sugar&eggs. Seaweed is one of the ingredients in some ice cream.
--> Eating chocolate was once considered a temptation of the devil.

"No wonder we're fat"
--> A can of SPAM is opened every 4 seconds.
--> More popcorn is sold in Dallas than anywhere else in the United States

What do you think? I think these facts are interesting.

Hope you enjoy it!

Monday, June 18, 2007

Things that I did when I couldn't sleep

Hello again!

I decided to find any information about coffee since my blog's title is "Coffee Lover."

According to the article that I found from Coffee universe.com, "Coffee is a seed of a berry. A common myth alleges that coffee was originally discovered by a goat herder named Kaldi. After watching his heard of goats become frisky after eating berries from this unknown bush, he ate them himself, and found these berries gave him a renewed vigor."

Three major coffee growing regions are:
1. Africa+ Arabian peninsula
Coffees from this growing region are the most distinctive in the world, characterized by dry, winy acidity, chocolate and fruit undertones, rustic flavors and intense aromas. Ethiopia is the native land of coffee, and it was in Yemen that coffee was first cultivated and prepared.

2. Central + South American
Their light body, simplicity and sharp acidity distinguish the coffees produced in this growing region. They are typically thought of as having bright flavors with a clean, crisp finish.

3. Indonesia + New Guinea
Indonesia is the world's third largest producer of coffee. However, only 10% of the crop is Arabica, and the number of quality beans available for the specialty coffee industry is limited. Even though they are a small percentage of total production, arabica coffees from this region are considered some of the best in the world, and are prized for their richness, full body, long finish, earthiness and gentle acidity.

General flavor characteristics of coffee:
*Richness-refers to body and fullness
*Complexity- the perception of multiple flavors
*Balance- the satisfying presence of all the basic taste characteristics where no one over-powers another

Source:http://coffeeuniverse.com/world/regions

OST. Tokyo Drift -Teriyaki Boy

I watched this movie about two weeks ago at shelter, and I liked both the movie and its soundtrack (Teriyaki Boy).
The rhythm of this song reminds me of gamelan...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p07GQhBdIPQ&mode=related&search=

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Happy Father's Day!

The wireless Internet connection in my apartment didn't work well since last Saturday night.
Therefore, I go to UDCC lounge again to get the iastate wireless access. *Sigh..

Nothing special happened to me this morning. I went to church at 8:30 AM and slept again for about 1.5 hrs. Hmmph... I realized that I spent my weekends for sleeping.. Hehehe...

I don't have any interesting topics that I can share with you at this moment. My brain is a little bit slowly this morning. However, I notice that taxi driver will celebrate his birthday this upcoming Wednesday.

All right...
Bye!

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Super Chores---

I slept about 4.5 hrs last night and woke up at 6 since I had to work at 8 AM this morning.
Kids wanted to make omelets, and it didn't turn good because no one could make a perfect omelet. The kitchen was messy, and kids who were supposed to clean this area refused to do it.
I was supposed to supervise kids who worked in the kitchen and main floor bathroom areas, but Kit (my night manager) moved me to rec room. The girl who cleaned the main floor bathroom kept calling me, while another kid asked if they could start to clean the rec room.
Thus, I ran back and forth between downstairs and upstairs to supervise their works and to make sure that the morning shower went smooth. I nodded when Kit said that I looked exhausted as I entered the office.

I can't believe that I'll have to come back to shelter tomorrow night. *Sigh...
I think I'll go to church tomorrow morning at 8:30 AM instead of this afternoon.

p.s. I wonder what my friends do in Chicago at this time. They are probably in the middle of city tour or shopping. Uhuhuhuhuhu.... I wish I could go with them. I really want to visit the aquarium.. Does anyone want to go that place with me someday?
*Sigh... That's ok! I'll meet them again on Monday anyway...

Friday, June 15, 2007

"Importance of Workplace Values"

Ranking on a scale of 1-100, of importance to employee:

1. Respect (being appreciated and valued in the workplace)
2. Achievement (the sense of purpose and meaning from your work)
3. Balance (the opportunity to balance work time with family needs)
4. Job security (confidence that jobs will be there every day and not be phased out)
5. Money (being paid competitively compared to others w/ similar jobs)
6. Employer leadership
7. Benefits
8. Time
9. Professional development (opportunities for professional growth and learning)
10. Personal safety

Source: Iowa Employment Values Study.
This information is published on The Des Moines Register (June 15, 2007)

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Mencari bintang...

Ini blog bagaimana si??
Ko alamat e-mailku bisa terlihat? ih..bingung...

Today's activities:
-->Tadi sore bikin banana bread di tmpt Elaine, cuma ada beberapa pisang yg blm hancur...hahaha....
Kurang puas si dng hasilnya. Mungkin perlu coba resep yg lain.
-->Hbs gt nonton the Starter Wife. Pemeran utamanya cantik. ^_^
-->Dinner di May House
-->berusaha mencari good spot utk lihat bintang di Ames, tapi Elaine lupa jalan ke sana. Yg ada lihat kunang2 dan perumahan dng pemilik yg amat sangat hemat listrik.

-->Dan sekarang menulis blog yg tak jelas sembari menunggu acara ultah tmn..

Hik..
Besok semuanya ke Chicago dan I'll be alone for three days. T_T
Lunglai

Dah ah..

da da

halo!

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