Wednesday, January 30, 2008

aargh...

Have you ever dealt w/ mental retarded kids or any kids who have serious behavioral issues?
Can you imagine that no matter how hard you try to explain, this kid won't get it?

I am currently dealing w/ a thirteen yrs old boy who has a five yrs old's mental capabilities. He is physically fine, but you will notice that something wrong w/ him when you talk to him. This boy'll get frustated easily and is very sensitive. He demands one-on-one attention, and you won't be able to multitask when he is around you.
The hardest part is that you can't scream and tell him that he is stupid or idiot because it will tear him apart. You also can't tell other clients that he is DIFFERENT from other normal kids in his age because of privacy issue.

Ooohhhh.............
The saddest part is his parents don't want him to come home. :(

Monday, January 21, 2008

Not Sure Where I am going---

I am done w/ both the graduate school applications and Golden Key Scholarship submissions. Mid-February is the earliest time I'll get the result, while the GK scholarship won't be announced until July 2008.

Now, in the middle of submitting grad school applications, I got an e-mail from Hyatt Regency Pittsburgh about their internship program (8-12 mths). I almost forgot that I happened to send a lot of applications within Hyatt properties, and I couldn't count how many times they rejected my applications. This time, they actually want to interview me for internship position, and I decide to accept their invitation. I have one full-time job in my hand, so it's not going to hurt me if they don't want to take me. I also want to know how far I can move in terms of the selection process because I haven't done any interviews for past 5 mths. :)

Thus, the phone interview is scheduled this morning, Jan 21 between 10-noon. I ended up half sleepy because I didn't know when they would call me. I thought the HR coordinator would interview me, but it was the Director of Room Operations who called me. He basically explained the program, asked me if I had any preferences (F&Bs or Rooms), and few questions like how I dealt w/ difficult customers. It seems to me that he wants me to know everything in front before he moves to the actual interview. I also asked him if there's any second interview (if I am passed the firs one) and he said yes. He definitely wants to meet and talk to me in person before he makes a decision. Not sure how, but I ended up making a "deal" w/ him before he ended the interview.

The "deal" is that I'm going to meet him on Feb 8 at 2 PM at Hyatt Regency after I told him that I would go to Pittsburgh on February, and if possible, I would like to visit Hyatt Regency. He was curious w/ the purpose of my trip to Pittsburgh, so he asked if I would have any interviews or whatever. I then told him that I would attend the info session at Univ of Pittsburgh on Saturday (Feb 9), and he didn't know that I haven't done any job searchings for a long time. :P

I suddenly feel that my future is not clear again. At the same time, I recognize that God has his own way for me, and I don't know where he will take me. Everything happens so quick that I don't have time to pause or rewind that particular scene. The same thing happened when I moved to a new apartment w/ Syl 7 mths ago. I didn't know where I would go, a little bit hesitated to move to Chicago right away w/ no job offer on hand, and Syl suddenly found a place for both of us. I was thinking to go to culinary school or grad school for Spring 2008, but I got a job offer from shelter. Those life scene happened outside my original plan. I, of course, thanked God for his kindness to me. I also thank him for my days at shelter, my co-workers who spoil me, and the social supports that I received from my professors as well as my best friends here in Ames. My parents' prayers also contribute to what I've been achieved until this time.

My time is ticking, four months from now, my OPT is expired. I will have to leave the United States by July 6, 08. I plan to go home, organize my new bedroom, celebrate my birthday at home, reapply visa for grad school, and etc. Again, I plan everythig in detail, but it seems that I am going to screw up my original plan w/ Hyatt stuff.
Let see how my meeting w/ Hyatt Pittsburgh goes. I can't say much at this time, but I can't deny that I am nervous again.

Okay, that's all I have.
See yaa,,

Monday, January 14, 2008

Hectic time--

I've just paid my graduation application fee for Univ of Chicago.
I finally made it after chasing my references to submit their recommendation letter and finishing all required essays for past two weeks. It was crazy and almost thought that I wouldn't make it. I then called the university admission department to check if they got everything they needed, and they told me that they haven't made a file for me because I've just paid my application fee today. They advised me to call back by the end of this week, but the dateline is tomorrow.. Hahaha... I don't know how this will go.

I originally didn't intend to apply at Univ of Chicago, but I changed my mind because Chicago would be a great place to work w/ youths and families from different cultures. Thus, I will be able to get in touch w/ different organizations for future practicums or related internship easily. Another consideration is the location that allows me to travel to Ames and convenient international flight.
My best friends and shelter(work place) are still in Ames, so I definitely want to visit them if I have time. I also have couple college friends who currently reside in Chicago, so I can ask them to help me for apartment and other stuff that I don't know.

I will go to Pittsburgh on Feb 8-Feb 10 to attend information session on Feb 9 (Saturday). They have same date and time w/ University of Chicago for info session, but I'll go for Univ of Pittsburgh first and ask for individual visit for Chicago.
I guess I will travel alone this time, but it should be fun. :)
I choose Pittsburgh for personal reason. :) The university is not that bad, their social work program is ranked #16 (US News & Report, while Univ of Chicago is ranked #5.. hahahaha...
However, I probably can graduate w/ distinction or even cumlaude, if I go for Pittsburgh because the ave GPA is 3.5. :)
I guess, I will have to wait the final result. I've been asking God to show me which road He wants me to go. If the final answer is to go home, I will go home-means Indo. It will be hard, but I understand His choice will be the best one. :)

Ok...
talk to you later..

-W-

Monday, January 7, 2008

FIshy...fishy....

I got a fish from my colleague on Saturday. She provided me w/ the jar, fish food, and decoration, in addition to the fish. I thought she brought fish for shelter because she likes to bring stuff for kids. It turned out she brought that fish for me because she thought I wouldn't be so lonely if I had fish at home. She also mentioned that she almost bought a puppy for me...
hahahaha...

Unfortunately, the fish was a little bit sick when my colleague transferred him to the jar. I went home early on Saturday night, so I asked my best friends to help me w/ the fish. She taught me how to change the water, put aquasafe, and etc. She concerned w/ the fish because it looked like he would die in 5 minutes. hahaha...
Anyway, the fish is really died on Sunday morning. :(
My colleague told me that I could return it to the store and got a new fish. I agreed due to she had a thoughtful gift idea for me.. so I should try to have a fish..

What else??
Oh, I went to a Korean store near CubFood w/ my friends and was excited because I found green tea mochi ice cream. I then picked that stuff w/o second thought, but the owner told me that I couldn't buy that mochi ice cream. She told me that the ice cream wasn't in a good condition, not safe to be eaten, and she wasn't sure when she would get new mochi ice cream again...
huhuhuhuhu....

I guess that's all I have for now..
I may continue to write some other stories later today...

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Super Early Morning...

I couldn't sleep.
I have been thinking about stuff, ranging from work to personal life.
Finally, I decided to turn my bedroom's light on again because my brain wouldn't let me to get a rest.

By the way, I made my day at shelter. My colleague knew that I didn't look forward to working, so she told my other colleagues about that. I was surprised that my day manager was investigating on some issues after part-time staff told him that she heard two male clients talked how they weren't happy w/ my shelter. I think I will have an interesting staff meeting next week (if my day manager brings that particular issues to the meeting). I had a little chat w/ him before he left for home. He had a vacation last week, so he stayed late to catch up everything. I then mentioned to him that this was the first time I didn't want to go to work. I told him that I didn't have that feeling before. He told me that he used to have that kind of feelings long time ago.

He then asked how my Christmas went. I told him that I didn't have a good Christmas, which was true. I cried a lot prior to CHristmas, and I even cried the whole day one day after Christmas. My roommate left for good, my Mom called me, and it was a bad phone call. I couldn't help it, cried on the way home. I was pretending that everything was fine, hid it from my friends so that they didn't know how terrible I was. He felt sorry to me, and I thanked him for his time.

Okay, back to shelter... I was fortunate enough that kids weren't that bad tonight. I was really quiet,hesitated to initiate a conversation w/ them, but we had a little chat after that. I was praying that everything would be fine for the rest of the week. **cross fingers**

I also chatted w/ our night manager before I left for home, asked if it was true that he applied for grad school. He told me that he applied several universities in California. I was surprised when he told me that he was going to social work, too. I thought he would go for psychology, since he had a background in Psych. I then told him that I applied for social work program, but I was spreading my applications from midwest to east coast. :)
He told me that he would leave our shelter at the end of Summer, while I would leave shelter around late April. I was kind of worried w/ my supervisor. I hope she could find good candidates to take our spots (night manager and Youth Specialist-reg)

Well,,, I guess I will have to sleep...
I need to work again tomorrow...
I still don't want to go there, but I have lots of things that need to be done.

-W-

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

2 hours to my work shift--

I complain a lot about my clients at shelter, but I seldom say that I don't want to go to work. This time, I am not in a good mood to go to work, and I really don't want to go there. Funny, unbelievable I guess..

Unfortunately, I need more work hours, so that I can get a time-off. What I mean is I plan to visit up to 3 cities next month, so I have to make sure that I have enough hours to make my holiday. I plan to visit Pittsburgh, New York (if possible), and Chicago from Feb 9-12. That means I need to take a whole day off on Saturday, and I have to make sure that I save a lot of hours during the month of January.
The problem is I am so tempting to take half day off this upcoming Saturday, but I think I shouldn't do that.

Okay, enough for my work and holiday issues. Let's talk about a surprise SMS from my old friend that I got this morning.
My old friend from Singapore sent me messages, asked my opinion about her wedding plan. I don't know why she asks me, but I have to reply her SMS because I am sure she is waiting for my response.
She is a Malaysian who is working in S'pore. I met her when I did my 3 mths training at Le Meridien Hotel, S'pore. Her boyfriend is a Balinese, and they have been dating for about 3.5 years. Her boyfriend used to be a hospitality student like me, and he did a 6 mth training in one of the restaurants in S'pore. They met and have been doing a long distance relationship for about 2 or 3 years. My friend has visited him in Bali couple times, and recently her boyfriend asked her to get married.

It seems that her boyfriend wants her to move to Bali, and this means she needs to change her nationality from Malaysian to Indonesia. Her boyfriend is currently jobless, but he has a new home in Bali. Weird...
Her brother didn't approve her relationship due to different nationality, lack of financial support, and other related issues. Thus, she asked my opinion, or at least, she expected me to give another perspective.

I advised her to postpone her wedding plan for another year. I told her that she and her boyfriend need to save money first, before they get married and have kids. I also informed her that the living expenses in Bali are quite high, so she needs to have at least extra savings for her own life. She hasn't replied my SMS yet, but I hope she could make a wise decision.

I am currently enjoying my single life, but I've been starting to have my own saving account since my senior year at Iowa State because I want to have my own condo ^_^. I felt regret though, because I could have a lot of $$ on my account if I started early. :P

Anyway, I wish her luck, and I have to get ready..

Ciao..