4 weeks to Pittsburgh--

I am no longer working as a Youth Specialist effective May 1, 2008. I even can't say good bye to my workplace, therefore; I switch my position from full-time to volunteer during the month of May. I am going to miss my co-workers and workplace after May.

4 weeks from now, I will leave for Pittsburgh permanently, and I try to assure myself that I am going to be allright. Everything is ready, except my packing process, but I am sure it won't take a long time. I am scared to think how my life in Pittsburgh look like, given the fact that I have no one right there. When I came to Ames 5 yrs ago, I had 5 other people who came as a freshman at Iowa State. 4 people including me stayed at residence halls, and some of us had same classes. Thus, I didn't feel lost after all.

Now, I don't know whom I am going to meet, and I keep questioning how I am going to survive in graduate program. I know it's silly to think like that, but I can't deny that I am nervous w/ my life after Ames. Part of me convinced me that I'll be succeed in the program, and part of me questioned my abilities. This part reminded me that Pittsburgh is not Ames, the professors and curriculum won't be the same as the ones I had in Iowa State. The subject is not about Hotel and Food, it is about human and how we take care of them. Your classmates are professional people, cumlaude students, so you need to be careful. At the end, it seemed that this voice is getting stronger than before, and I started to lose my confidence. **Sigh..**

Well... today, one of our friends will go home for good, and we will accompany her to the airport.

I don't know what else to say... I am still speechless...

Have a great weekend!